Do you ever just post a post just to keep the blog going or do you always have something you want to say?? When I first started blogging I looked at it more like a journal than anything else. Then I started writing for readers..... I'm not sure that the mental shift has been good. If you have noticed I haven't been posting as often as usual. May is probably the busiest month of the year around our place... second only to December. I have really been doing some self evaluation.... I am all about "Choosing Simplicity" in our life and blogging was creating a lot of 'mental clutter'. I decided to do some de-cluttering..... really evaluate what and why I post.
To be completely honest, I have struggled with rejection issues my entire life. God has done amazing things in my life to heal my heart and set me free from this bondage. I no longer weigh the low 105 lbs I did in high school (the skinny people are always loved, right?). My BMI is now in the healthy range. I also don't try to 'fit in' everywhere.... except in the bloggy world... YIKES! I haven't liked the pressure I have put on myself to have a good and read blog. I have found myself falling into the trap of wanting to be 'IN' the right group... hang with the 'popular' gals... be WORTH something. YUCK! I AM WORTH something..... I am worth everything to Jesus, to my husband, to my children, my family and the friends that really love me for who I am!!!
I have met some really great people here on-line and I have learned so much and been encouraged in so many ways by reading their blogs. However, the comparison trap is WAY too easy for me to fall into. "Choosing Simplicity" has ment cutting out a lot of blogging time for me. I have blogs that I will continue to read, but I am choosing to let go of some others. The same pressure I faced for years to be the "tall, skinny girl with curly hair" has manifested itself to have a "insightful, encouraging and meaningful" blog. I am choosing TODAY to let go of that pressure once and for all.... I am going back to blogging for fun rather than to gain readership. So, if I never have anyone read my blog again... OK! Life is too short to worry about my 'readership' when I should be spending more time reading to my children, singing with them, being silly and training them up to be well rounded adults!!!! They will not care if I am one of those "popular" blogs... they just want me!
Have a BLESSED day, BE a BLESSING!